Owning God's Favor

    So today started out rocky~ I just had THAT feeling.  You know THAT FEELING, right?! The feeling can change with my circumstances, but it always comes back to fear.  Today it was fear of losing what I have, a.k.a. financial instability.  It is very likely (given my current circumstances) that I will be visiting a credit counselor to try and get into the solution.  But I am not ready~ at least not right at this moment.  So I remembered what the book suggested, simply have faith that God has more in store for me than I can imagine... my only responsibility for today is to believe that.  So I attempted to believe all day~ I thought about when my next paycheck was due... and wondered how I was going to juggle the money to cover all basis.  I did my best to believe.  Then early this evening I checked my email.  I actually get one more paycheck this calendar year~ I had my days mixed up.  I am so grateful that I will be able to make my bills this month!  Is this the belief that Joel Osteen writes about? 
   Later I took to the bubble bath and began to read the next chapter titled, "Living Favor Minded". Osteen wrote about the power of changing my thinking by believing that because I am child of God, I am granted favor.  It kinda sounded strange, but I kept reading.  He says that people will suddenly want to help you when you proclaim that you have the favor of God.  As I read, I realized that there have been times when "coincidentally" good things happen out of the blue. One of Vince's favorite sayings is, "There are no coincidences".  His philosophy is congruent to this chapter. I think it was this favor that brought me to check my school email when I did.  I chose to have a whole day of mental suffering~ then God put it in my mind to check my email ( I had NO plans of even thinking about school for another week.) As soon as I saw the email regarding my last check of 2009~ relief came over me.  And now I know that the whole situation was an example of God favoring me.... but first letting me suffer out of my will.
   You know, the thing that gets me... is that I know- that I know -that I know it always works out in the end.  After all, I'm here now, right?  So I really want to change my thinking.  I need to understand that good things can happen just as easily as bad things.  On my own, it's an equal possibility for both~ but with God's favor~ what do you think? Kinda sounds like a silly question, huh?